So hope you all had a fun and safe Halloween!  Things are going well here, well as in the same as normal.  Which I can't really complain about, but it's better than being in a gutter.  Anyways, I figured I post a q quick picture of the two pumpkins I carved for Halloween.  I got a kick out of them, hope you like them too.

Besides that, I might be starting up a new website venture with my friend Albert, so hopefully that works out.  Should be an interesting outing as it'll be the first time I try and monetize a website and run it as a business.  Here's hoping!

Today is my birthday!  Whoo hoo!  Turned 28 today.  Starting to feel old.  Mind and maturity level around age 20 make it hard to take getting older used to.  I think I'd be dealing better if I was farther along in life, career/personal goals wise.  Let's hope that next time I can report better news come this day next year.

But to celebrate I had my one day exception to my no soda/fast food dealio this year.  Was very nice to have them again.  Although if I can keep losing weight without them I might extend the deal past the new year, or at least modify it to allow for an occasional meal.  As of a couple weeks ago when I last checked I'd lost 50 lbs. so far this year.  Not bad, but about half way at least to where I want to be.  I need to work on my regular food diet, cut back on portions and the like.  Also need to find a way to burn more calories.  Basketball once a week is nice, but I need a lot more.

Okay, I'm done, figured I'd at least make an entry for the day.  G'night folks.

Well, first off, I'm feeling much better.  The sickness lasted about 2 1/2 weeks and still to a minor degree still is throwing off my balance, but it's barely noticeable and only during certain activites.

But anyways, as you might noticed I've done a few little changes on this page.  The biggest one being the addition of the XBOX 360 blog below.  Basically it's an automated blog that's written by my XBOX 360 based on what games I play and stuff like that.  It's pretty neat, give it a read!

And uh, it doesn't look like I'll be able to get JmanX.com open by my birthday as I'd planned.  Kind of had a setback with being sick and then having to work my ass off to make up for missing an entire paycheck.  I'm working on it though, hopefully I'll get it going shortly though.

So when it rains it pours it seems.  Shortly after my last emo-licious entry here, I got some sort of ear virus infection thing that has basically left me bed-ridden for the past few days and possibly a few more from here out.  Sucks BIG TIME!

What a fool I am.  Sometimes you come to realizations about yourself and rarely have I found them to be pleasant.  Tonight was one of those nights.

I've realized that pretty much my whole life that I can remember has been an effort to try and get people to like me.  I've fooled myself into thinking that there was a nobler reason, or that it was just my nature to do the things I do.  But it's a lie, and a sad pathetic one.  I've spent so much energy trying to learn and listen to things so that I might be someone people could talk to.  Maybe if I knew what they wanted to talk about they'd talk to me.  Maybe if I was the one who'd be there to listen then they'd spend some time with me.  I've bought so many toys and material things to entertain and get people's interests.  Come play this game with me, look how nice it is here, don't you wanna sit for awhile?

What goals and dreams of mine don't revolve around this selfish goal?  I like to think, if I had money or was able to help enough people would think I was good and someone they should be around.  I've tried changing the way I look because maybe if I wasn't so fat or ugly people would be attracted to me and want me.

I've sank to such depths that sadden me and leave me with a life of regrets and nothing to show for it but a meaning-less pile of stuff and virtually no one around.  No one who cares, no one who really wants to be with me, no one that would love me.  All I am to the world is whatever they can get from me, and of course I'll gladly give it all.  Because I'm a slave to it, I need the scraps of attention I get just as much I need to breath.  And desperate people do desperate things.

And what is worst, is that I've fought myself on all accounts even on this.  Self sabotage has been a culprit all throughout.  I push away everyone and everything.  If I can't have things my way or how I want them, I leave it behind.  I find ways to find fault in all things, and burn every bridge.  Sooner or later, I push away everyone.  If it hasn't happened yet, someday it will.  I am alone, by choice and by action, now and until the day I die.  God help me please, cause without you I really am all by myself.

Testing out new webcam stream for the site.  See if it works.  Enjoy the show if it does.  I figure I'll leave it on most of the time.  You get to see how boring things are on this end.

must remember to fix bed hair before coming on here...

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So I didn't get around to mentioning it in my last update, but I finally have my motorcycle back and running.  For those unfamiliar, end of last year my bike was having problems where it would stall out and die when I was riding it.  After having some back and forth issues with the dealership mechanics, and several failed attempts to fix it, they finally got it taken care of and back on the road.  Now I just gotta find an excuse to take it out for a ride more often than just going to work and back.  Wish my "night" job was giving me more hours that way I could drop the day job and have Saturdays off to go on rides with my Dad's motorcycle group. 

Recently had a couple mini-vacations.  Couple weeks ago my Thursday night bowling league took their trip to Las Vegas.  We stayed at the South Point hotel, which I still say is pretty damn nice, although you gotta drive to the strip if you wanna visit the rest of the hotels.  Didn't end up winning any money, although we (my team) did manage to get our "I Tried" towels for totally tanking and coming in last place, which was an accomplishment in it's own.  Which reminds me, this next season we're going to try and do well, the motto for our team will be "Worst to First".  To try and help, I finally broke down and bought a new bowling ball.  The old one I had was from back in 2001 or so when I worked at the bowling alley and was essentially a used ball that was super cheap.  It's served me well over the years, but I think if I'm going to try and get better I need to get one that's better suited for my style of play.

This past weekend my Dad, my brother Ray and I all took a trip out to Arizona.  The occasion for the trip was to go see the Dodger's first spring training game at their new facility in Glendale. Arizona.  Last year during our Florida vacation we were able to see their last spring training game at Vero Beach, so was cool to be able to "close" there and "open" at this new place.  Oh and while we were there at the game my Dad managed to get Jason Repko's autograph, and my brother managed to get the Dodger's owner Frank McCourt.

But the personal highlight for me was to get to visit my friend Jackie who lives out in Tucson.  Been about 6 months since she last came out here to visit and able to see each other.  Caught a movie and dinner and finally got to meet her Mom and step-father.  Was very cool and as always a pleasure just to hang out with Jackie again.  Wish I had more time and was able to see more of the area and do more.  Will try and make it back out there in July I think and spend a couple days there visiting.

Okay then, that's about it for now.  I should have some free time coming up so hopefully I'll be able to make good on that promise to start working on the "main" websites again.  We'll see, I also have video games to play and movies to watch.

Hmm, I seem to have forgotten about this site again.  Once more my sites have gone neglected.  I think it's time though for an update.

So to anyone who may have noticed that I've been missing from my usual online hangouts, or to all the old myspace/facebook people who noticed my profile is gone, I would imagine this next statement is pretty obvious by now.  I'm no longer (and haven't been for awhile) going to bother with the internet community as a whole.  If you want to find out what's going on with me you can check it out here.  This site will be the only place I bother to "blog" or post about what's going on with me.

Also to anyone who may have personally known me in the "real life" outside of computers, unless I'm still talking to you I think you may know by now that I've been missing.  This is done on purpose.  Thanks for all the good times and memories, but this is a solo act from here on out.  Don't bother contacting me, I likely won't respond.  Good luck to you all and hope you have wonderful lives.  Maybe some day things will change, but don't hold your breath, I won't.  Oh, and you can stop trying to talk to people I know or used to know to try and find out about me.  I don't give a care anymore about all that BS, which is why everyone but a select few I know I can trust have been cut out of my life.  Go live your own lives and stop wondering about mine.  Don't worry, after some time passes you'll forget all about me and be blissfully happy again, I know I will be.

Ah okay, so now that I've gotten that taken care of, I guess it's time to update since my last post (jeez, almost a year already? where do I start!).  Let's see, well due to our past landlords need to raise rent on our old house, we've had to move.  We're still in southern California, but at a new house that's actually pretty nice.  I've even lately tried to get into a bit of gardening and hoping to see how that works out.  Other than that, I've been working two jobs since about the same time.  Having both keeps me fairly busy, hoping that I can manage to move into a full time position at one or find something better elsewhere.  And no, I'm not going to say where I'm working so you little cyber-stalkers can come find me.  That about covers the major stuff.  Oh and still going strong on my new year's resolutions, almost 2 months in the books, hopefully it'll last the full year

In the future I'll try and update more often.  My work schedule with the two jobs has started to smooth out leaving me with some more free time to be able to catch up on things.  Now I just gotta stop being so damn lazy when it comes to this.  Well that felt good to get this updated again, maybe I'll even try fixing up some other stuff around the old website.  Till next time...(whenever that is)...

Well, as it seems that lately all I've been up to is video games, I saw this video (which is a parody of the discovery channel's ad "I Love The World") and thought it was awesome, so enjoy!

Okay, so I haven't done one of these little survey things in a while and this one was posted by Shalon on her myspace bulletin and I thought it looked interesting enough.  So here goes.

...80 Things You Might Not Know About Me....

....Whats your middle name?
Well, depending on how you know me, it's the name you might think is my first name, it's Julian.

....How big is your bed?
A twin, it sucks, wish I at least had a full.  But fine enough for now I guess for the single guy.

....What are you listening to right now?
"Just Shoot Me" reruns on TV and the clicking of the keyboard keys

....What is your favorite number?
10.  It's a great number that oft gets no love.  But besides being the base for a lot of things in math (and the metric system), it's also the roman numeral for X, which I think is an obvious reason for me liking it.

....What was the last thing you ate?
Some Red Baron oven cooked frozen pizza.

....Last person you hugged?
My brother's friend Andy "Drewlicious".  It was awkward and funny at the same time.

...How is the weather right now?
Got a good breeze on a warm day, keeping things cool and comfortable.

....Who was the last person you talked to on the phone or text?
On the phone probably taking a message for the 'rents.  Text? Jackie.  99% of the texts I get and send are to her.

....What do you find sexy in the opposite sex?
Well, the face is the thing that makes it for me physically.  The eyes especially really tell the story for the person and tell me a lot about who they are. 

....Favorite type of Food?
I think everyone who knows me knows this.  Good old american cheeseburgers ; )

....Do you want children?
Someday yes.

....Ever got so drunk you don't remember the entire night?
Never even had a drink before.

....Hair color?
Dark brown

....Eye color?
Hazel, which tend to change color occasionally to have a green or blue tint.

....Do you wear contacts/glasses?
Nope, the eyes are perfect baby.

....Favorite holiday?
Christmas.  Easy.  Just a great time of the year when family gets together, special family traditions, all the decorations and stuff, plus I love giving gifts to people.

....Favorite Season?
Winter.  Basically anytime it's cold.

....Last Movie you Watched?.
Thanks to Netflix I've been catching up on a ton of movies I never saw, last night I finally got around to seeing "Training Day"

....What books are you reading?
I started reading "Mind Hacks" but got about halfway and haven't messed with it in awhile.  I also started but didn't finish "Lisey's Story" by Stephen King

....Piercings?
No, I think I'll pass on that.

....Favorite Movie?
All-time favorite is TRON.  I'm a geek at heart.

....Favorite Team?
Baseball: Dodgers, NBA: Lakers, Football: Tampa Bay Buccaneers

....What were you doing before filling this out?
Sleeping and texting Jackie.

....Any pets?
A Akita (dog) named Rachel, and an evil hellspawn cockatiel bird named "Cherry Cheeks".

....Have you ever loved someone?
Thought I did a couple of times, but didn't realize it until I actually did love someone truly.

....Who would you like to see right now?
That's not a hot celeb. female?  Probably just Jackie since I haven't seen her since early December last year.

....Have you ever fired a gun?
Nope, but really really would like to.

....Do you like to travel by plane?
Did it for the first time in March, I loved it.  Want to do it again.

....Right-handed or Left-handed?
Right-handed, just like every other shmoe, but what I can do with this hand is pretty amazing (wink wink ladies)

....If you could go to any place right now where would you go?
Arizona

....Are you missing someone?
Not really

....Do you have a tattoo?
No, but I'm not against getting one.

....Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings?
Not saturday mornings, but I have quite a few cartoons I like to watch, mostly on the nightly "Adult Swim" on the cartoon network.

....Are you hiding something from someone?
I'm always hiding a good amount from everyone.

....ARE YOU 18?
I used to be for about a year.

...WHAT IS THE WALLPAPER ON YOUR CELLPHONE?
A digital painting from some artist on DeviantArt.com

....DID YOU GET ENOUGH SLEEP LAST NIGHT?
Went to sleep at 4:30 am, woke up about 1:30pm...9 hours is more than enough.

....FIRST THING YOU THOUGHT ABOUT THIS MORNING?
What time is it, damn phone, gotta pee, what was I dreaming about, *censored*, what time is it, is that the mailman?

....WHAT DO YOU HAVE AT YOUR BEDSIDE?
A real wine barrel I use at a nightstand, on it is a lamp, speaker (for the surround sound system), keys, my wallet, cell phone (and charger cord), and a little notepad for my general musings and thoughts.

....GRILLED OR FRIED?...
Both.  If it's meat, grill it.  If it's potatoes or chicken, fry it.

....ARE YOU AFRAID OF THE DARK?
Not really, although not my preferred amount of light.

....FAVORITE HANGOUT?...
Probably the bowling alley

....3 THINGS YOU CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT?....
The internet, tv, and someone to text me all the time

....FAVORITE SONG?..
Very hard to call, hard to name 1 that I like better than so many others, but I think ZZ Top - La Grange is right up there in the top 3 or so.

....WHAT ARE YOU AFRAID OF?.....
Having to go back to work at Ralphs.

....ARE YOU A GIVER OR TAKER?....
I'm a giver when it comes to other people.  When it comes to me, I'm a taker.

....WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?...
Don't have any, just my self-given handle "JmanX".

....IF YOU COULD LOOK LIKE ANYONE WHO WOULD IT BE?
I think I'd like to look the same but be in much better shape.

....STUCK ON A DESERTED ISLAND & COULD TAKE ONE THING?..
A satellite phone with a full battery charge?  Too easy?  Bear Grylls?  No that won't work, he's a ringer.  Probably a knife, I'd like to have someone else there but that'd be pretty selfish as they'd then be stranded too.

....WHO'S YOUR CELL PHONE PROVIDER?......
T-mobile, although I very tempted to switch to AT&T just to get the iPhone.

....FIRST THING YOU'LL SAVE IN A FIRE?...
Other than the family?  I'll probably grab my external hard drive.

....WHATS YOUR FAVORITE COLOR?.....
Red.  Simple.

....WHAT ARE THE THINGS YOU ALWAYS TAKE WITH YOU?......
Wallet, cell phone.  If I could somehow combine those that'd be awesome.

....WHAT DID YOU WANNA BE WHEN YOU WERE A KID?...
Astronaut.

....WHAT DO YOU USUALLY DO WHEN YOU ARE SAD?..
Go to sleep.

....THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDSHEEt?..
Dark green on one side, maroon on the other.

....WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT BEFORE YOU GO TO BED?
"Jeez it's late."  And other private thoughts I won't share here.

So, wow, things can change quickly.  Since my last post some big changes happened.  First off, WaMu decided that I was no longer someone they wanted to keep employed and fired me.  Which sucked big time.  And I've been having trouble finding a job since, so lately, I'm just kind of hanging around doing nothing.  First few days was nice, but since has been really lame.

In March my family and I took a vacation and went to Orlando, Florida!  Big dream of mine to be able to go and finally came true.  The big reason for us going out there was actually to go visit my mom's parents who are living out there now.  It was really nice to see them again and how they're doing out there.  They showed us around town and took us on some river boat cruise that was pretty neat.  Plus we were able to catch up and also learn some history and stuff.  I found out my Grandma is actually going to have a book published as well.  I'm definitely wowed by that.

Also on the trip we were able to go to Vero Beach and see the last 2 Dodger pre-season games there.  If you don't know, the Dodgers have played their pre-season games in Vero Beach, Florida for the past 60 years.  It's a big part of Dodger history, they even call it Dodgertown there.  But the Dodger owners decided to go with a deal to move their pre-season training to Glendale, Arizona.  A move no doubt inspired by a desire to make more money, which is lame.  Anyways, we were lucky to be able to visit for our first time, and see the last 2 games they played there and be a little part of the history.

The big highlight of the trip was actually going to Disneyworld.  We spent 4 days visiting the 4 different parks of Disneyworld.  It was amazing and definitely a great place to visit.  Even though we spent a full day at each one, we really needed many more days to experience everything they had there.  Also we got a chance to go briefly visit the Kennedy Space Center, which is an awesome place to check out, another one I'd like to go back to and see everything we missed.  Oh and all the pictures from the trip here.

Lastly, a big deal here on the homefront.  It seems like our landlord wants to sell our house that we live in.  So it looks like we're going house-hunting again and trying to find a new place to live.  Hopefully we can find something that works for us and that everything goes smoothly, although the way things are, I expect at least a few bumps in the road ahead.

A lot has happened over the past year, not sure what to make of it all, but I'm here and it is what it is.

What did I do this year?
- Quit Ralphs.  Finally left the grocery store after 4 long years of work, a union strike, and a lot of turmoil, changes, and learning experiences, and of course a good friend in Dan.
- Started working at WaMu.  From Ralphs I went on to work a different sort of job.  Working at a bank is different than the grocery store.  A lot different atmosphere, a little more respectable (at least for me), and better pay.  I'm doing okay so far, still learning and getting better, hopefully I'll move up quick or move on to bigger better things.
- Moved out of the parents house.  Moved in with my friend Dan in a 3 bedroom apartment with another ex-coworker of mine named Khai.  Was a lot of fun being out on my own and these guys were really cool to hang out with.  Taught me a lot about living with people and about managing my time and budget.
- Moved back in.  After about 8 months of living in the apartment, I felt it was wisest to move back home and save my money.  There was some "tension" over things at the apartment, and I didn't feel it was the best place for me, so I went back home.  Now I'm trying to save my money and have a goal of getting my own place and doing things right.
- Got a new big screen HDTV.  Okay, so not one of life's great accomplishments, but I am damn proud of it.  It's a 37" LCD HDTV, and looks mighty fine in my room.  Got the PS3 hooked up to it and playing games and watching Blu-Ray movies are awesome.  Plus watching football has never been nicer on Sundays when watching in HD.  Probably my last big toy I'll get for awhile, but it's one that I'll enjoy for a long time.

All in all it was a crazy year for me.  I learned a lot about myself and what I want out of life and what to expect.  I'm still not too sure on what I want other than to get my own place.  I'm no longer concerned too much as I was before about finding a girlfriend or whatever; it's been forever since I was last with someone, and it does get to feeling lonely sometimes, but I've come to grips with it I guess.  I don't know what life will bring me, but I know that I'll continue on and face it and continue being.  Happy New Year to all, and to all a good night!

Well, like I said last time, things come at you fast, and they keep coming.  Looks like I might end up moving out and getting an apartment with my friend Dan as my roommate.  Looking at apartments this weekend, so wish me luck!

In the meantime, here's a cool survey I found:
Rules
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

HOW ARE YOU FEELING TODAY?
Neil Sedaka - Next Door To An Angel
Could mean that I'm close to something I want?

WILL YOU GET FAR IN LIFE?
No Doubt - Underneath It All
Haha, I guess I'll be buried under stuff.

HOW DO YOUR FRIENDS SEE YOU?
BB King, John Lee Hooker - You Shook Me
I guess they see me as a bluesy laid back cat that likes to have fun

WILL YOU GET MARRIED?
Ca$his - Everything is Shady
Hmm, sounds like I might, but the chick might be ghetto and all about the benjamins.

WHAT IS YOUR BEST FRIEND'S THEME SONG?
Shaggy feat. Janet Jackson - Luv Me Luv Me
Heh heh, yeah, this fits my best friend just right

WHAT IS THE STORY OF YOUR LIFE?
DJ Copi - End of Time (DJ Napo Remix)
Hmm, techno. I guess it means I'm different then most, and rarely heard by lots, but to some I'm really loved.

WHAT WAS HIGH SCHOOL LIKE?
Coolio - 1, 2, 3, 4 (Sumpin New)
Yeah, definitely brought new things, was a fun & cool time

HOW CAN YOU GET AHEAD IN LIFE?
Bob Dylan - Like A Rolling Stone
Hmm, that's not a good sign, but probably pretty accurate

WHAT IS THE BEST THING ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS?
Bruce Springsteen - Born in the USA
HAHAHA! I guess that's a good thing otherwise I wouldn't have known them

WHAT IS IN STORE FOR THIS WEEKEND?
Electric Lights Orchestra - Fire On High
Creepy ass intro, interesting middle, cool/rocking ending

TO DESCRIBE YOUR GRANDPARENTS?
Cee-Lo - When We Were Friends
I think I was probably closer to my grandparents when I was a kid

HOW IS YOUR LIFE GOING?
Panic! At The Disco - I Write Sins Not Tragedies.
Wow, nailed it.

WHAT SONG WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
DeBarge - All this Love
I'd like to think I'll live a life full of love and be remembered that way

HOW DOES THE WORLD SEE YOU?
LL Cool J - Hey Lover
Awesome. I'll take it.

WILL YOU HAVE A HAPPY LIFE?
Al Stewart - Year of the Cat
Maybe the years I gotta girl I will be

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS REALLY THINK OF YOU?
D-12 - Nasty Mind
Whoa, this is getting creepy. Too accurate.

DO PEOPLE SECRETLY LUST AFTER YOU?
Jennifer Lopez & Ja Rule - I'm Real
I guess despite my doubts, the person does exist.

HOW CAN I MAKE MYSELF HAPPY
John Williams - Han Solo Returns (background music from Star Wars movie)
Haha, yeah, watching Star Wars again would be fun, haven't in a while

WHAT SHOULD YOU DO WITH YOUR LIFE?
50 Cent - Gatman And Robbin' (feat Eminem)
I guess it means I should be a thug superhero, hmm... nah

WILL YOU EVER HAVE CHILDREN?
FFH - When I Praise
I guess if I pray for them I will

WHAT SONG WOULD YOU STRIP TO?
Daft Punk - Superheroes
HAHA! Perfect, techno beat, I'd so use this song if I did.

IF A MAN IN A VAN OFFERED YOU CANDY, WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
Papa Roach - Broken Home
I guess that means I would and I'd be a gonner.

WHAT DOES YOUR MOM THINK OF YOU?
Jay And The Americans - She Cried
:(

WHAT IS YOUR DEEP DARK SECRET?
Daler Mehndi - Tunak Tunak Tun
Hmm, this song is probably a deep dark secret in and of itself, and the dance I do when it plays

WHAT IS YOUR MORTAL ENEMY'S THEME SONG?
Gaylords - The Little Shoe Shop
Heh, if this is my enemy's song, I think life is good

WHAT IS YOUR PERSONALITY LIKE?
Redman & Gorillaz - Gorillaz On My Mind
Haha, unique, like having fun, a mix of a bunch of different styles

WHAT SONG WILL BE PLAYED AT YOUR WEDDING?
Big Tymers - Still Fly
That'd be so awesome if this was true.

Wow, been a little bit since I last updated.  Been a while since I actually had something to talk about.  For most of the past couple months it's been really boring, same stuff different days.  But like the Nationwide commercials say "Life Comes At You Fast".  The past couple weeks have seen a few big changes.

First off, my truck (the '78 F-250 Ranger) blew a head gasket a couple weeks ago, which was a major fix.  After some thought, we decided to have the entire truck's engine rebuilt for a complete overhaul.  So for the past 3 weeks or so the truck has been in the shop, but just this week it was finished and we got it back, and it's purring like it was fresh off the assembly line.  It's nice to have it running well and "new" again.  After 21 years on that engine, and over 100,000 miles, it held up like a champ.  Hopefully this 3rd life will be better and easier on the truck than it's first two (it's been through more than a lifetime of cars experience a few times over).

Secondly, and most importantly.  I'm now working at a new job.  I had been working at Ralphs Grocery store for the a little over 4 years, most recently doing night time (graveyard shift, midnight-8am) stocking.  That had been going okay, I became good friends with Dan, who also worked night crew, and I learned a lot about a lot of things.  But Ralphs' corporate execs have been changing a lot of things, and especially after the big grocery strike in 2003/2004, the grocery stores are no longer a place that was a good career for employees like me or new employees.  So I had been feeling it was time to move on for a little while now.  I had tried the electrician's apprenticeship program, but it appears the system is for those who intend to wait (possibly) several years before they can start.  So I've mostly given up on that career.  And thanks to some other employees who didn't like the fact that I did my job (and theirs to some degree) faster, better, and easier than they did, they complained about me to the store director and the store director had me transferred (his best option considering I'd done nothing wrong, so it was either transfer me away, or transfer away 4 other employees, which is something I wouldn't expect any store director to do).  So anyways, instead of working at some store far away, I quit.

Which brings me to the new job.  My brother Raymond recently starting working at Washington Mutual bank.  After hearing more about it, I decided I would apply and give it a try.  Well after a couple weeks of going through the application/interview/background check processes, I start work on Monday morning, Feb 12th!  I'm excited to be working at the bank, it will be a increase in pay starting over what I was making at Ralphs, and definitely has possibilities for careers in the future.  So hopefully this means good things.  And also means that I'm well on my way to moving out and starting life on my own.  I'm excited!

Well, things are going okay with the job at Ralphs.  Picked up my new motorcycle, which is a Triumph Bonneville Black, and it's sweet.  So if you're looking for me, look for me on my bike.  Here's a picture of me and the bike:

Anyways, been a little bit since I put up a survey, so here's another one I've "borrowed" from my friend Amanda on myspace. 

[A is for age:] 25, just turned the quarter century mark on Sept 20th.

[B is for beer of choice:] None.  I've never and don't drink.

[C is for career:] Currently working retail, but trying to get into an Electrician career

[D is for favorite Drink:]  My sweet addiction, Coca Cola

[E is for essential item you use everyday:] My cell phone, although I rarely use it for phone calls, mostly just for time/alarm/games.

[F is for favorite song at the moment:] AC/DC - Rock And Roll Ain't Noise Pollution

[G is for favorite game:] Dead Rising on the XBOX 360

[H is for hometown:] Born: Harbor City, CA.  Living: Torrance, CA

[I is for instruments you play:] Just my ding-a-ling

[J is for favorite juice:] Cherry/Tropical Punch

[K is for kids?:] Someday I'd like a couple

[L is for last kiss?:] Maybe 2 years ago or so, and wasn't much of a kiss.

[M is for marriage:] Hopefully someday.

[N is for full name:] Robert Julian Lopez II

[O is for overnight hospital stays:] Not a one so far.

[P is for phobias:] The dark, crowded social gatherings

[Q is for quote:] "Gimme some sugar baby"

[R is for biggest regret:]  One major lifetime regret, 3 or so other ones I really wish I'd handled differently, and a whole lot of little ones.

[S is for self confidence:]  More now than before.

[T is for time you wake up:] Since I work graveyard, I usually go to sleep in the morning when you're all waking up and heading off to work/school.  So I usually wake up around 2-4pm.

[U is for color underwear:] Any non-descript dark color.

[V is for vegetable you love:] French Fries count?

[W is for worst habit:] Laziness

[X is for x-rays you've had:] Wrist, both hands, head, neck, back and feet.

[Y is for yummy food you make:] Parmesan Pull-Aparts

[Z is for zodiac sign:] Virgo (although I don't follow/believe any astrology or anything)

Ah September.  One of the craziest months out of the year.  And this year does not disappoint.  I've been working my ass off at work, with days off few and far between (1 day off in my first 14 days).  But it does feel good to be back and work, I'm just tired out and can use another day off soon (next Friday will be my second day off).  Also, this is my family's biggest birthday month.  Including me (on the 20th), this is when a whole lot of people in my family have their birthdays.  So it's gonna be crazy trying to keep up.  I am kinda looking forward to my b-day, but probably won't be doing anything too big.  Probably just hanging out with my friends or something.  On the 19th of this month, I have my motorcycle driving skills test, so hopefully I'll have my license for my birthday and be able to take that to work and back and finally be able to drive at night (legally anyways).

Anyways, it seems like a lot of things going on, will be interesting trying to keep up on with everything, including my websites.  It's been tough keeping myself honest to not let updates start sliding back and becoming fewer and far between.  Hopefully I can keep on schedule and not let up on the updating. 

Well, let's see.  What's going on with me lately?  Well my job situation appears to be dealt with.  I'm probably going to going back to Ralphs and taking up my old job there.  It's not what I'd wanted, but it'll be a good enough place to go and stay until I finally get called up by the Electrician's union to start that (if they ever do call me in). At least I should be able to finally start catching up on all my bills and debts.

Life's been odd lately.  For a long time it seemed as if things had been suspended in a kind of time bubble, with nothing changing and things pretty normal (if not boring).  But now things are taking some turns I hadn't expected.  First was the Ralphs thing, I didn't want to have to go back but now I am, so it's almost a step backwards career wise.  Then on a recent trip to Disneyland it just so happened that we passed by my first girlfriend and her new husband walking by (it's been 5+ years since I last saw/talked to her).  We didn't talk, to be honest I didn't want to talk to her.  So yeah, weird coincidence of timing right?  Just recently I got a message from my last girlfriend who wanted to catch up on things and see how things were going.  I replied and it's was nice to hear from her again (it's almost been 2 years since we last talked).  But I mean, it's just been weird that out of the blue in the span of a month I either see or hear from my past 2 girlfriends whom it's been years since I've seen or heard from.  So it's like a time warp from the past coming back to say hello to the present me.  I'm not sure what's going on with everything or what I'm supposed to do.  Especially with it seems like everyone else I know moving on and living their life, while I'm seemingly going in reverse.  Confusing to say the least.

Oh well, I've been working on trying to figure out a method for uploading pictures on here that doesn't require hours of manual labor to do.  Hopefully a solution will present itself and I'll be able to get up all the old photos and some of the new ones.

Well, now that JmanX.com is back up and running.  I've been keeping myself a little more busy updating that along with j0g.com and also Nehitters.com (a friend's site).  Still looking for a job.  Thought I'd have something with Trader Joe's but as time passes with no news I think my chances are evaporating.  The Electrician thing is looking pretty bleak.  I'm barely moving on the list, so it's going to be a long while before I finally get in there, which is a little upsetting because even though it's not my "ideal dream job", it's at least a good career that I could have made a living at.  So now for the first time since I started working when I was 18, I have no job, not in school, no girlfriend, and no clear direction on where I'm going here.  I can honestly say I'm a little frustrated and depressed.  Anyways, while I sit here and mope around, I figured I'd do another one of those online surveys that are so popular on myspace.  What can I say, I'm a junkie for them.  Here's a couple different ones:

Use band names spell your name:
J - Journey
U - UB40
L - Linkin Park
I - Incubus
A - AC/DC
N - Naught By Nature

2) Have you ever had a song written about you?
Nope.  Unless I married a cute/hot musician girl, I would hope not.

3) What song makes you cry?
Hmm, probably the one that makes me the most teary eyed is "Peniel - More Amazing"

4) What song makes you happy?
Mungo Jerry - In The Summertime (or the cover of the same song done by Shaggy)

5) What do you like to listen to before bed?
Classical music.  Works like a charm.

a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 5'10"
HAIR COLOR: Dark Brown
EYE COLOR: Hazel
PIERCINGS: Just a Prince Albert (heh heh, j/k, I don't have any)
TATTOOS:  None yet

r i g h t . n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING?:
Black and pink (thanks to a laundry mishap)

WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO:
Some techno song you wouldn't know.

WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH:
Pizza I had for lunch and maybe coke.

WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?:
Getting kind of hot, but good otherwise

HOW ARE YOU?:
I'm doing okay, see start of this post for more accurate answer

d o. y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?:
Reading in the car or stuck in a car with air conditioning going for too long.

HAVE A BAD HABIT?:
Procrastinating to the point of not doing.

GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?:
Most of the time.

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW(S):
I'm mostly hooked on Adult Swim (late night Cartoon Network block of shows) shows.  Futurama, Venture Brothers, Robot Chicken, Cowboy Bebop, Samurai Champloo, and a few other anime shows there.

CONDITIONER:
You mean it comes separate from the shampoo?  Pert baby!

BOOK:
"The Dark Tower" series from Stephen King

MAGAZINE:
Usually Sports Illustrated or maybe Maxim if I find a copy to read.

NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK:
Coca-Cola

ALCOHOLIC DRINK:
Jack and Coke, minus the Jack.

THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND:
Movies, nothing, movies, nothing.

BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER:
Linkin Park probably is my favorite.

h a v e . y o u
BROKEN THE LAW:
Traffic violations, curfew violation once, and nothing else I've been caught for, but I regret now.

RAN AWAY FROM HOME:
Nope, I like a hot meal too much

SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE:
No need to, I was allowed to go as I please most of the time.

EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING:
There's enough naked beached whales as is, so no, I haven't.

A PRANK PHONE CALL:
Yeah, but I suck, I always mess it up by laughing or something.

EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY:
Nope.  That's just wrong.

USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE:
Yeah, occasionally when I'm broke and still can't stop spending.

EVER SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE:
Um, felt sick and exaggerated it a bit before to be able to stay home.  But never left once there.

FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH:
Haha, I think once I did.  But it was only momentary.

BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY:
Yep, was in 6 different plays, including one Shakespeare one.  I was typecast as the mexican migrant farm worker in all 6.

LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER:
I've always tried to be there for anyone who'd need it, but never actually had anyone cry on my shoulder.  Other than ex-girlfriends I've never been around a friend who was crying or what not.

l o v e.
BOYFRIEND:
Never

GIRLFRIEND:
Um, no.

SEXUALITY:
Straight as an arrow.

CHILDREN:
Would love to have a couple of them someday.

CURRENT CRUSH:
My toe, via the couch.  Love hurts.

HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE:
Yep.  Immensely hard time.

BEEN HURT?:
Physically, quite a lot, but only one major injury (broken wrist).  Romantically, yeah, a couple times.

YOUR GREATEST REGRET:
This one's a secret.  Sorry.

GONE OUT WITH A SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR THREE DAYS:
Nope.

r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB:
Nope, not right now.  Looking for one though.

YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW:
I usually don't listen to CD's.  Occasionally I'll make a mix of stuff to listen to while driving.  But rarely.

WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?:
Having fun with friends/family.

WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?:
You mean people still buy CD's?  HAHAHA!

w h e n / w h a t . w a s . t h e . l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: 
A few years ago.

YOU GOT E-MAIL:
A few hours ago.

THING YOU PURCHASED:
A meal from a fast food joint.

TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED:
Futurama

AND now for survey number 2:

1. Taco Bell, Chipotle or Baja Fresh?
Taco Bell

2. Current Favorite song?
AC/DC - Rock and Roll Ain't Noise Pollution

3. AIM Screen name?
Sir JmanX

4. Would you change your senior prom date if you had the chance?
Nope.  I had a good time, was fun.

5. Skim or Whole Milk?
Whole or Vitamin D all the way.

6. Did you have chicken pox as a kid?
Yep.  Stayed at my Grandma's while I had it, she gave me lots of 7up

7. Price of gas you last paid for?
$3.59

8. Wild night of clubbing or hot movie date in front of the fire?
The second one is more my style

9. What's your highest bowling score?
226 straight up.  280 with No-Tap on.

10. Ever signed onto Myspace and under New Cool People, seen someone you know?
Nope.

11. Have you ever had a red headed slut?
No, but sign me up!

12. Worst police-related experience?
Getting hassled for being at the beach too late with a bunch of friends when I was 17.

13. Know the next 3 numbers of the sequence?
Usually.

14. The movie you think everyone needs to see?
"TRON", "The Last Dragon", and "Equilibrium"

15. The reason you're at your computer right now?
Bored and nothing better to do.

16. Would you track your kids with a microchip?
Never.  That's called lazy parenting.

17. Do you own a nalgene bottle?
Is that some sort of evil potion?

18. Favorite sentimental song right now?
The Spinners - I'll Be Around

19. Favorite accent on someone of the opposite sex?
Um, I'll take any?  Maybe the cute japanese girl accent.

20. Last time you used your car horn?
Can't remember.  Used my motorcycle horn joking around when out riding with my dad.

21. Did you buy your computer from Dell?
Nope, I got a Gateway

22. Plans for today?
More of nothing.

23. Do you do your own laundry?
Sometimes.

25. Biggest Annoyance right now?
The electrician's union.

26. Your favorite soft drink?
Coca Cola

27. Steak or Shrimp?
Steak.  Meat good, seafood bad.

28. Cubed ice or crushed ice?
Bleh, cubed, but only a small amount please.

29. Favorite piece of clothing?
My black denim jacket.

30. Favorite 80s Group?
Genesis

31. If you could go to any concert tomorrow, who would you see?
Styx or AC/DC

32. Do you own a planner?
Yep, but it's from when I was like 14, never been used.

33. Gym buff, or do you think working out is over-rated?
I think working out it good, although everything in moderation.

34. Which do you notice first (girls) chest or arms (guys) chest or butt?
Out of those choices?  Probably the girl's breasts.  But if given any choice, I always look at the face first, most important to me out of the physical features.

35. Can you keep a beat/dance?
Can't keep a beat, can dance, but badly

36. Favorite brand of beer?
I don't drink.

37. Do you play the bounce in beer pong?
Nope, I don't drink.

38. How many times has your profile been viewed?
On myspace?  maybe 500 times total.  On my websites?  Several thousand a day.

39. Favorite McDonalds menu item?
Double Quarter Pounder value meal.

40. Walmart or Target?
Target all the way.

41. Are there dirty dishes in the sink right now?
I dunno.  Probably a couple

42. Would you hang out with the person that filled this out before you?
Yep, although that would require one of us traveling to the other side of the country.

43. Do you own a TI-83?
Yep.  Have a few games on it and a few programs I made.

45. Ever got into a heated debate over religion?
Quite often, although I'm usually not "heated", but other people tend to get a little heated during the conversations.

47. What time is it?
4:40 pm

July 8th, 2006

The writings and rants sections have been updated finally.  No more empty navigation text, all the sections of this site are now done.  All pages have been updated.  I'll be adding more of the old pictures from friends and stuff later on.  But now that I've got this finished (stuff that I've needed to add in since I put it up) I am forced to get back to JmanX.com, which should be back up soon.

Been calling the Electrician's union and trying to see how things are going (how long till I get called up to work).  The list is finally moving, so hopefully within a month or two I'll be starting.  Until then I have to get a temp job to keep paying the bills.  Gotta get off my ass and start the job hunt.

Other than that, I've been continuing to improve at driving the motorcycle, I think I'm ready to hit the streets, so hopefully it won't be long before I have my license and can take out the Yamaha Roadstar my Dad got for us to drive and start cruising for the ladies ;-D.  

Hmm, okay, well, finally back to this site.  Anything to avoid actually fixing JmanX.com it seems.  I've even created a whole 'nother site.  www.j0g.com is the new site.  It's basically a collection of flash loops, which are gif animations set to music or sound clips.  I've been having a lot of fun doing it, and it's nice to actually have a somewhat creative outlet.  Anyways, I suggest you all go take a quick j0g.

Other than that, I'm going to try and do some other updates here, and then that leaves me with no choice but to actually get JmanX.com running.  I will get to it sooner or later.  As Kevin said "that's a really long 24-36 hours!", hopefully it won't last too much longer.  In the meantime, here's a complete waste of everyone's time, another survey, this time it's lifted from Potter off of myspace.

1. EVER BEEN GIVEN AN ENGAGEMENT Ring?
Nope, gave a promise ring once, but that's about it.

2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?
2 consecutive 2 year relations too 2 different girls.

3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED?
An FM transmitter for my mp3 player.  Waiting for it to be delivered now.

4. EVER DROPPED A CELL PHONE?
Many a time.  I'll say this, Nokia makes a durable phone

5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?
Maybe a couple months ago...nah I'm lying, I can't even remember when I did a serious work-out.

6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?
Gadgets, toys.  Thinkgeek.com, Woot.com, Midnightbox.com are my addictions.  I've bought a ton of silly gadgets from Thinkgeek, and a few different items from Woot or Midnightbox.

7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?
In N Out - Double Double meal (suck it East Coast, West side 4 life!)

8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Their attitude.  I mean, I'll see their bodies first, of course, but the first thing I really notice is their attitude.  Even an attractive girl loses all sexiness if she's got an attitude problem, whereas a more average looking girl will attract my attention much more if she's cool.

9. ONE FAVORITE SONG?
AC DC - Rock & Roll Ain't Noise Pollution

10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE?
The golden state, sunny southern California.

11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTENDED:
South High School.  It was the southern of 4 high schools in my city.

12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER:
T-Mobile

13. FAVORITE MALL STORE:
"Aahs!" or the similar "Spencers Gifts" (I think, I don't spend any time in actual malls.  I go to Best Buy or shop online.

14. LONGEST JOB YOU HAD:
2 year job, overlapped into a 3 year job elsewhere.

15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?
I did own a pair of fuzzy dice, don't know what happened to them.

16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?
No, ever heard of Caller ID?

17. LAST WEDDING YOU ATTENDED:
My friend Dan's wedding last Saturday.

18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY:
My friend Scott, who I could trust not to tell people and is an accountant, so he could help me take care of my money.  Other than him, I probably wouldn't tell anyone outside my parents and brother.

19. LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR BEST FRIEND:
Seeing him tonight for another friend's grad party.

20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT:
McDonalds. Hands down best ever. Bring back Supersize!

21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE EVER HEARD:
"I love you"

23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIENDS?
Denny's (I'm a simple man with simple tastes)

24. CAN YOU COOK?
I like to, but don't know how to make more than a couple really simple things.

25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?
Black 1978 Ford F-250 Ranger 4x4.  Biggest, baddest truck on the road.

26. BEST KISSER:
My first girlfriend.

27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED?:
Probably after my ex and I stopped talking to each other.  But only briefly, I was surprised at how quick I got over it.

28. MOST DISLIKED FOODS:
Mostly seafood & healthy foods.

29. THING YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:
My incredible adaptability and (while it sounds egotistical, it's not) my intelligence.

30. THING YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:
My weight.

32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB?:
I pulled a 26 hour shift yesterday, lots and lots of coffee.

33. FAVORITE MOVIE?
"Tron" or "The Last Dragon"

34. CAN YOU SING?
Yes I can sing.  Can I sing well? No.  Can I sing marginally okay?  No.  Can you sing without people pointing and laughing?  No.  Do you sing often?  Yes.

35. LAST CONCERT ATTENDED?
3 Dog Night which played at the Orange County Fair about 10 years ago or so.  That's the only concert I've ever been to.

36. LAST KISS?
Over a year ago in Vegas, didn't go over as well as I'd hoped it would've.

37. LAST MOVIE RENTED:
"The Ringer", watched it with Jackie before she went to Texas.

38.ONE THING YOU NEVER LEAVE THE HOUSE WITHOUT:
My wallet, my cell phone.

39. FAVORITE VACATION SPOT:
Used to be Vegas, but I think I'm tired of Las Vegas.  I really love Disneyland.

43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?:
Desktop, but I'd like to get a laptop as well (a tablet pc to be exact)

44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?:
Daniel Tosh (closely followed by Dane Cook & Gabriel Iglesias)

45. DO YOU SMOKE?
Never.

46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES?
With clothes, even I don't want to see myself naked.

47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?:
The dust mites living in my pillows and mattress/blankets.

48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?
If the people really love each other and work at making it work.

49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?
Maybe 3 or 4 times.

50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST?
Pancakes, the way my mom makes them.

51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE?
Hate it.

52 HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?
On someone's door because they refused me Trick or Treating candy (actually, I've never been trick or treating, or egging someone's house)

53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY?
Nope, it's a load of bull****.

54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Scott

55. LAST PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALL LIST?
My friend Dan.  Only one on the list, I always delete my missed calls list.

56. WHAT WAS THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED?
T-Mobile telling me my Caller Tunes song is expiring.

58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?:
Nine.  I love pilllows.

59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?:
Shorts and boxers.

60. PICK A LYRIC, ANY LYRIC:
Lean wit it, Rock wit it.

61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?
I don't like Peanut Butter or Jelly.

62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?
Yes, but only marginally well enough where I have to let the girl win.

63. CAN YOU SWIM?
Yeah, but not in the ocean/river/lakes.  I drown if not in a pool.

64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?
Rainbow Sherbert

65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?
Yes, I like to know where I am and where I'm going.

66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF:
I have an IQ of 156.

68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?:
Yep, the Players Ball in Vegas this last January, even dressed up as Pimp.

69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON:
Winter.  Cold & rainy is my favorite weather.

70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID?
Today at dinner with the guys.

71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?
amazingly enough 9am, which is a record for the past few weeks where my average was 2pm.

72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER?:
Rain, colder weather.

73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET?:
For speeding back when I was 22 I think.

75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?:
Caleb

76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?:
They are entertaining.  If I had to choose between a pirate and a ninja, I'd go with pirate.

77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND??
Grad party/dinner, fixing my chair, Father's day at my grandparents with my parents, and Eugene's b-day party after.

78. BIRTHDATE: 09-20-1981

79. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE:
I think Calloway said it best, "I wanna be rich!"

85. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP?:
Nope.

87. ARE YOU SMILING?:
No, but still mildly amused.

89. DO YOU MISS SOMEONE RIGHT NOW:
Yes.

90. IF YOU COULD GO ANYWHERE IN THE WORLD WHERE WOULD YOU GO?
Orlando, Florida (Disneyworld)

92. ARE YOU IN HIGH SCHOOL?:
Nope.

93. DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH?:
Sort of.

94. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?
I think maybe Michael/Mike.  Dunno why.

95. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT?:
The only swimming trunks I have are rainbow colored ones I got years ago.

96. DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST?:
Not applicable

97. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH?:
Yes, went to Las Vegas for a bachelor party.

98. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE?:
Nope, but I'd like to go.

99. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER:
Nope, a brother.

100. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?:
There is no upstairs here.

101. ARE YOU IN LOVE?:
Sort of.

102. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL?
I assume this is excluding normal checkups.  Once when I was a kid and fell and busted a big cut open on my forehead.  Still have the scar.  Oh, and broke my wrist jumping down from a wire fence when my shoelace got caught at the top.

103. DO YOU WISH YOU COULD SEE ANYONE PARTICULAR RIGHT NOW?
Yes.

104. WHAT JEWELRY ARE YOU WEARING?
None, I don't wear jewelry, don't even wear a watch.

105. WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO AFTER THIS SURVEY?
Upload this survey to the server then go to sleep.

Happy Birthday Midnight Box!

It's Midnightbox.com's birthday today, so they are selling a $1 Mystery Box that can contain any one of a bunch of different stuff. I got one the last time they had it, and got a couple neat little items, although someone got a Premium Xbox 360(!), not bad for just a buck (+$5 shipping standard). Anyways, if you guys see this, I'd recommend checking it out and getting one, nothing more fun than getting a mystery package in the mail, and for only a buck, how can you go wrong!

In other news, expect the new JmanX.com to go up later this week!  New stuff in store for the update, be there!

Another set of surveys, hijacked from Amanda on myspace.  There's two survey, so ignore the numbering, too much of a hassle to delete them.

1. EVER BEEN GIVEN A RING?  Nope

2. LONGEST RELATIONSHIP?  2 years

3. LAST GIFT YOU RECEIVED? Christmas gifts, some movies, games, other gadgets/trinkets.

5. WHEN'S THE LAST TIME YOU WORKED OUT?  A couple months ago.

6. THING(S) YOU SPEND A LOT OF MONEY ON?  Toys, gadgets, electronics, food.

7. LAST FOOD YOU ATE?  Chicken and white rice w/ corn.

8. FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX?  I'd be lying if I didn't say their figure, although that's just what I notice at first, anyone saying that they didn't is probably lying.

9. ONE FAVORITE SONG:  JC Chasez - Right Here (By Your Side) 

10. WHERE DO YOU LIVE?  Los Angeles, CA (well, near LA, closer to the beach and much nicer)

11. HIGH SCHOOL YOU ATTEND? I graduated from South High.

12. CELL PHONE SERVICE PROVIDER?  T-Mobile (bet my plan is better than yours)

13. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE COLOR?  Red with a black outline, or the other way around.

14. LONGEST JOB HELD:  3 years at Ralphs.

15. DO YOU OWN A PAIR OF DICE?  Yeah, no 7+ sided dice though.

16. DO YOU PRANK CALL PEOPLE?  Nope, I can never pull it off.

17. LAST WEDDING ATTENDED?  My Uncle Willie's.

18. FIRST FRIEND YOU'D CALL IF YOU WON THE LOTTERY?  Hmm, maybe Scott or Jackie, but that's if I called anyone.  I'd probably just tell my parents/brother, collect my money and disappear.

19. LAST TIME YOU ATTENDED CHURCH:  Yesterday morning.

20. FAVORITE FAST FOOD RESTAURANT: McDonalds.  No question.

21. BIGGEST LIE YOU HAVE HEARD:  One I told I'm sure.  Followed closely by "I love you".

22. FAVORITE FOOD:  Cheeseburger and fries.

23. WHERE'S YOUR FAVORITE PLACE TO EAT WITH FRIEND?  Uh, don't really dine out with my friends much, but I'd say Denny's or Norm's if I had to choose.

24. CAN YOU COOK?  Extremely limited ability.  Only a couple very simple things.

25. WHAT CAR DO YOU DRIVE?  1978 Ford F-250 Ranger 4x4 Truck.

26. BEST KISSER?  Dunno, can't remember.

27. LAST TIME YOU CRIED? I plead the 5th.

28. MOST DISLIKED FOOD:  Vegetables/Seafood, but the list could go on forever if I knew them all.

29. FAVORITE TYPE OF MUSIC:  Techno

30. THINGS YOU DISLIKE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF:  My weight, my lack of motivation to do the things I need or sometimes want to do, my tendency to hurt people I care about.

31. THINGS YOU LIKE THE MOST ABOUT YOURSELF: I dunno, seriously.

32. LONGEST SHIFT YOU HAVE WORKED AT A JOB? 15-16 hours, something in that range back when I worked at the bowling alley.

33. FAVORITE MOVIE?  TRON

34. CAN YOU SING?  Not at all, but doesn't stop me usually.

36. LAST KISS?  Couple years ago, probably was a bad idea, didn't work out.

37. LAST MOVIE RENTED: I don't rent movies since my brother works at Hollywood Video and he rents them and I just steal them to watch before he takes them back.  If counting that: King Kong a few days ago.

38. THING YOU NEVER LEAVE HOME WITHOUT?  Wallet.

39. FAVORITE VACATION SPOT?  Las Vegas.

40. DO YOU LIKE CHINESE FOOD?  Yeah, Panda Express style.

41. HOW BIG IS YOUR BED?  Twin (busted mattress, no box spring, on a broken wooden bed frame)

42. IS YOUR ROOM CLEAN? Partially, I let my room get extremely messy and disorganized for periods of several months, then I get on a cleaning binge and totally clean and reorganize everything.  I'm between those periods, on the "getting cleaner" side right now.

43. LAPTOP OR DESKTOP COMPUTER?  Desktop

44. FAVORITE COMEDIAN?  Jerry Seinfeld.  (Close runner-ups, Dane Cook, Gabriel Iglesias, Daniel Tosh)

46. SLEEP WITH OR WITHOUT CLOTHES ON?  With.  Usually whatever I end up wearing at the end of the day.

47. WHO SLEEPS WITH YOU EVERY NIGHT?  No one.

48. DO LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIPS WORK?  I dunno, never been in one.  I think if both people want it to then it will, especially if they really care about each other.

49. HOW MANY TIMES HAVE YOU BEEN PULLED OVER BY THE POLICE?  ~10 (I dunno, lost count)

50. PANCAKES OR FRENCH TOAST? Pancakes.

51. DO YOU LIKE COFFEE? Nope, not at all

52. HOW DO YOU LIKE YOUR EGGS?  On someone else's plate, I don't like eggs.

53. DO YOU BELIEVE IN ASTROLOGY? Nope.

54. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE:  Eugene.

57. MCDONALDS OR BURGER KING?  McDonalds.

58. NUMBER OF PILLOWS?  8.

59. WHAT ARE YOU WEARING RIGHT NOW?  Shorts, boxer, sleeveless t-shirt.

61. WHAT KIND OF JELLY DO YOU LIKE ON YOUR PB & J?  I don't like Jelly or Peanut Butter.

62. CAN YOU PLAY POOL?  Yeah, no pro, but not too bad.

63. DO YOU KNOW HOW TO SWIM?  Barely.  Didn't learn until I was in high school.

64. FAVORITE ICE CREAM?  Rainbow Sherbet.

65. DO YOU LIKE MAPS?  I like the satellite photo ones on Google Maps or Live maps

66. TELL ME A RANDOM FACT ABOUT YOURSELF.  Size 13 shoe, oh yeah, you know it.

67. ARE YOU HAPPY WITH YOUR LIFE SO FAR?  Nope.  But I hold hope it'll get better.

68. EVER ATTEND A THEME PARTY?  Yeah, a Halloween one 4 years ago.

69. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?  Winter.

70. LAST TIME YOU LAUGHED AT SOMETHING STUPID?  Hours ago.

71. WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP THIS MORNING?  Woke up Sunday morning at 10:30am, but now it's 3:30am Monday morning so I don't expect I'll wake up till about 2pm today..

72. BEST THING ABOUT WINTER:  More rain.

73. LAST TIME A COP GAVE YOU A TICKET? 3 years ago, longest time I've gone without one.  And now I'd probably jinxed it, oh well.

74. CATS OR DOGS?  Dogs rule.  Friends don't let friends have cats.

75. NAME OF YOUR FIRST PET?  Dog.  "Caleb", an Akita.

76. DO YOU THINK PIRATES ARE COOL OR OVERRATED?  Pirates are on the cooler side of the scale I'd wager.

77. WHAT ARE YOU DOING THIS WEEKEND?  Dunno, a whole lot of nothing.

78. HAS SOMEONE YOU LOVE EVER DIED?  Fortunately no-one close to me has died yet, I hope I can say that for a lot longer.

79. WHAT IS THE THIRD LETTER OF YOUR NAME?  L.

80. HOW OLD ARE YOUR PETS? Rachel (dog) is 5, Cherry Cheeks (cockatiel) is at least 30-40, although we think he's evil and probably hundreds of years old.

81. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?  Harbor City, CA

82. ARE YOU SICK?  Just sick and tired.

83. DO YOU GO TO SCHOOL?  Not right now

84. IS THE BATHROOM OPEN? Yeah

85. ARE YOU ON A LAPTOP? No.

86. ARE YOU WATCHING MTV?  Not if I can help it..

87. ARE YOU SMILING?  More like neutral (no smile, no frown)

88. DO YOU HAVE ON EYELINER? No

89. DO YOU LIKE TO DANCE?  Not really.

90. ARE YOU BLONDE? No.

91. EVER BEEN IN A CAR ACCIDENT?  Yeah, like 6 or so.

92. DO YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND?  No.

93. Who is your crush?  No crush.....

94. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE NAME?  Michael/Mike (dunno why, just always liked that name).

95. WHAT COLOR IS YOUR BATHING SUIT/TRUNKS?  Black/white trim.

96. DOES YOUR SCHOOL START IN AUGUST? No.

97. DID YOU GO ON VACATION LAST MONTH? No.

98. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN ON A CRUISE? No!

99. DO YOU HAVE A SISTER? No.

100. ARE YOU UPSTAIRS?  1 story house, no upstairs to be in.

1.) When showering, do you start the water and then get in or get in and start the water?
Water first, then get in.

2.) Do you read the labels on your shampoo bottle?
Rarely.

3.) Do you moan in the shower like the people on the herbal essence commercial?
Nope.

4.) Have you ever showered with someone of the opposite sex?
Yeah, a couple times.

5.) Have you ever peed in someone's yard?
Just my own backyard.

6.) Have you ever brushed your teeth in the shower?
Nope.

7.) Have you ever dropped your soap on your foot?
Probably, not that I can remember though.

8.) How old do you look?
Like I'm 20-21 I think from people's reactions.

9.) How old do you act?
Like a bitter old man.

10.) What's the last song you listened to?
Sir Mix A Lot - Sprung On The Cat

11.) Have you recently become a member of anything?
The ETI (Electrical Training Institute) for an Electrician's Apprenticeship job.

12.) What are your plans for the weekend?
None.

13.) Do you like anyone?
Sure, who doesn't like someone.

14.) Have you ever ridden a mechanical bull?
Nope.

15.) If you were working on a pirate ship, what would you most likely be doing?
Walking the plank.

17.) Have you ever called anyone a slut?
Yeah.

19). Have you ever smuggled something into America?
Never been out of the country.

20). Does playing the guitar make a girl/guy more attractive?
Eh, doesn't change my opinion.

21). Do you live in a city with a good sports team?
Several (see "Los Angeles")

23). How many people do you think would come to your funeral?
Eh, just close family and about 10 others total maybe.

24). How many of them would come just to make sure you're dead?
Haha, I hope none.

25). Do you have more enemies or more friends?
Friends (I hope)

26.) Have you ever sent an anonymous letter?
Nope, written several letters I meant to send, but didn't.

27.) Can you fix your own car?
Just very basic things yeah, but not really.

28.) Have you ever turned someone down for a date?
Nope, never been asked really.  Always did the asking.

29.) Are you smarter than your friends?
Haha, I may score higher on an IQ test, but I'd say I'm the least "smart" among any of my friends.

30.) Have you ever stolen anything from your friends?
Nope.

31) have you ever been to jail?
Nope.

32.) Should you have?
Yeah, for sure.

33) Do you like the smell of beer?
Eh, I dunno, I don't drink, so I really don't know what it smells like.

34.) Have you ever died or killed someone in your dreams?
Never died, dreams always end before that, but I've killed and seen others die in my dreams plenty, but not since I was a kid.

35.) Have you ever given to charity?
Yeah, kinda.

36.) Would you kill a dog for $1000?
No.  Only instance would be a dying dog that needed to be put down and it was done humanely.

37.) Do you sometimes get depressed?
Of course, but it passes.

38.) Do you live with your parents?
Yeah, they've been good to me and I'm a moocher, but hopefully not much longer.

39.) Do you have plans for your future?
Very few realistic ones.  Moving out being the primary one.

Okay, I'm a sucker for these silly email/myspace surveys.  So here's one I liked that I did.

86 Things About Me

1. What is your shoe size? 13

2. Do you like spicy foods? Dominos Buffalo Wings, few others.  Not all spicy foods though.  Depends on what it is.

3. Have you ever ridden a horse or any other animal?  Sat on a horse (got bucked off) when I was a kid, same with an elephant at the zoo when I was a kid.

4. What colors have you dyed your hair before? Nope

5. Have you ever written a song/poem?  Yep, Been meaning to upload them here, the titles on there on the left of the page.

6. Can you roll your tongue?  Ask my ex's, allllright! Giggidy giggidy!  But seriously, that's a yes.

7. Where do you work?  Nowhere now, applying to be Electrician Apprentice.

8. Do you know sign language? I know "The Finger", "The Shocker", "Peace", "Rock On", "Live Long & Prosper" and "Hang Loose".  But no real sign language.

9. Do you prefer to write with a pen or a pencil?  Pen.  I don't make misteaks...mistakes.  I like the permanency, the darkness.

10. Have you ever dressed in drag? Never.

11. Do you cry at weddings?  Never.

12. What do you wear to bed?  Whatever I'm wearing if I'm lazy, just shorts if it's hot or if I feel like changing.  Socks usually to keep my feet warm and so I don't need shoes when I wake up to walk around.

13. Do you wear glasses or contacts? Nope, 20/10 vision baby!

14. What color socks are you wearing? White socks, thankfully not one of my many with holes.

15. Have you ever been called a pimp? A few times, dressed as one in Vegas at the Player's Ball.  

16. Are you a neat freak?  Kinda.  I really like organization and everything to be in it's place and clean.  But I'm far too lazy to actually keep my living spaces that way.

17. What color are the sheets on your bed right now? One blanket is green on one side, red on the other.  The other blanket is green/black with binary code on it.

18. What do you hate the smell of? Rotten eggs, dookie, body odor.
18a: What smell do you love?  Firework's smoke, spices, laundry rooms.

19. How many of your myspace friends have you slept in the same bed with? Zero.

20. Have you ever told someone you loved them and didn’t mean it? Nope, I take that serious.  I don't even like saying it to my friends that are girls that say it to me unless I mean it.  It's way overused.

21. What bones have you broken? Left wrist, tip of my right middle finger.

22. Ever told a big lie? Many, but I try not to if I can.

23. Who was the last person to send you a letter through regular mail?  David & Jenny sent me a Christmas card.

24. What languages can you speak? English, and very little Spanish.

25. What do you want to be when you grow up?  Me.

26. Have you ever watched porn? Yes.  No more questions!

27. Pick one: the power to fly or the power be invisible? Invisible, but not in gay Clay Aiken way.

28. Have you ever punched someone in the face out of anger? Never.  Never been in an physical fight with anyone other than play-fighting with my brother..

29. How many people have you kissed? 5 (not including relatives of course)

31. Have you ever kissed someone whose name you didn’t know? Nope.

32. What is your favorite ice cream flavor? Rainbow Sherbert

33. What should you be doing right now? Sleeping.

34. What color is the carpet of the room you are in? Short brown carpet.

35. What year were you born? 1981.

36. Have you ever watched The Power Rangers? Yeah, watched a lot of crap growing up and during the dog days of summer.

38. Would you shave off your eyebrows for $1,000? Probably, I could use $1000.

39. Have you ever been to a family reunion? Not really, I see my family a lot without needing a reunion.

40. What's the last restaurant you ate at? Outback Steakhouse.  Magnifique! 

41. Have you ever gotten a speeding ticket? Haha, yes, among many other types of tickets.

42. Do you like to cuddle?  Sure.

43. Chocolate or White Milk? I like it straight-up, white milk all the way.

44. Which of your parents do you look more like?  People say my mom, I say my dad.

45. Do you sing in the shower? No, I sing in the car to the radio.

46. Do you want to have kids? Yes.

47. Do you like the number 47?  47 can't be the question, it can only be the answer.

48. Do you miss someone right now? Kinda.

49. If it ain’t broke don’t fix it. Agree or Disagree? Disagree, make it better while you got a chance.  If you wait till it's broke, then you got problems, you need to think ahead and prevent it from breaking.

50. Do you have a car? I have a '78 Ford F-250 Ranger 4x4.

52. Pick one: be poor with the one you love or be rich with whoever is around?  Probably poor with the one I love.

53. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? Hopefully finishing the Electrician's Apprenticeship and living on my own.

54. Have you ever been dumped? Thrice.  By my 2 1/2 ex-girlfriends.

55. What words/phrases do you overuse? "haha", "heh", and "ah" when chatting online.  "Sorry", "Crap", "I'm going to bed". 

56. Do you hate anyone? Not really, few people I dislike, but no one I'd say I hate.

57. If you found out you only had 6 months left to live what would you do?  Try to do something worthwhile to help others so that I didn't live my life in vain.

58. When is the last time you went to the zoo?  About 3 1/2 years ago.

59. What is your opinion of PDA? Useful gadgets, especially the ones with the internet-enabled.  What's that?  Oh!  Those kind of PDA's...  Well, holding hands, kissing, hugging are fine, but keep it respectable for those around you.  Unless you plan to go all out and start boning each other right there and then (in which case I'll get my camera), keep it private.

60. Have you ever stripped in front of a group of people? Nope, fortunately for them.

61. Would you strip for money?  It'd have to be a LOT of money, like in the 6 figures or higher.

62. What do you hear right now? Neon Genesis Evangelion on Adult Swim/Cartoon Network on my TV.

63. What made you decide to fill this out? I'm a sucker for surveys.

64. What is your favorite cereal? Fruit Loops, Trix, or Frosted Flakes.  Although I can't remember the last time I had cereal.

65. Do you enjoy pain? Only if Mr. T is bringing to some jibber-jabberin' fool.

66. Do you have any piercings or tattoos? Nope, although if I get in good shape, I'd probably get a tattoo if I ever thought of something I'd actually really be proud to have permanently placed on my body.

67. What was the last beverage you drank? Coca Cola.

68. Can you keep a secret? Many.

69. Have you ever donned a cloak and pretended to be a super hero? Not since I was a kid and had the Superman pj's.

70. Do you have a good relationship with your family?  Better than average I'd say.  

71. Have you ever played the lottery?  Occasionally

72. Are you afraid of the dark?  To a degree, Yes.

73. Have you read the Bible? Not as much as I'd like to have.

74. Do you own more than 4 pairs of shoes? Nope, 1 pair at a time.  All occasions, all uses.

75. Is there anyone who doesn’t like you? All my ex's I think, probably many more, but that's all I'd guess that I know of.

76. Have you ever eaten snow? Never even seen real snow.

77. What is your favorite soda? To drink: Coca Cola, The Corporation: Pepsi.

78. What are you worried about right now? How I plan to pay my bills this month.

79. How long have you had this website? JmanX.net as the personal site, maybe a year.  JmanX.com I've had since 1999.

80. Who is the last person you talked to? My brother Ray.

81. Do you wish you were taller/shorter? Taller, always wanted to be 2 inches taller and be 6 feet tall.

82. Is there someone whose ass you would like to kick right now? My own.

83. Do you curse? I try not to if I can help it, although I slip sometimes.

84. Have you ever been involved in a threesome?  I plead the 5th ;D

85. If not, would you like to be? Seems exciting to think of being with 2 girls at the same time, but probably wouldn't ever really do it.

86. Look to your left. What do you see? The mess in my room.

It's weird sometimes how you wonder how people that you used to know wander back into your conscience.  Whether it's ex-relationships or old friends, the ones you never talk to anymore, it's funny how people can be so close or good friends and then something happens and you never talk to them again.  I wonder how my old friends are doing, from high school and a couple from before.  I sincerely hope they're all doing well and happy in life.

Pardon the following, I just have a bit of poison to let out of my head, instead of letting it fester there.  In my life I've made so many mistakes, I've driven people away and have done little to better myself in order to keep others close.  The guilt and pain aren't so much a burden I bear, as much as old nagging injuries.  They don't stop me from moving on or forward in life, and they're not a constant reminder.  But every so often, when things get lonely and you're by yourself, they start to act up and creep in the back of your mind and remind you of everything you've done.  Remind you that you don't deserve everything that you have and have gotten.  Many people have done worse things that I have, and most haven't done what I've done either.  I have dug my grave deep, I've carved every reason on the headstone, and have accepted that fate.  Yet for some reason I am not lying there in that hole, for some reason I keep on keeping on.  God must have some purpose for me that I don't know yet.  Whether it's an example of what not to do, or maybe some redemption in the far future that I cannot see.  I don't understand why.  Karma is essentially reaping what you sow, and I've definitely sown enough bad things to earn a whole harvest of bad karma.  But I have been kept from it, or it hasn't been returned to me yet.  And I just don't understand why.

I used to imagine what wishes I would wish if I was Alladin and found a magic lamp.  I used to think that I'd want wealth and superpowers.  But as I grow older and see my life from a clearer mirror, I wish I could change myself.  I wish I wasn't who I've become, I wish I could do the things I need to do, I wish I wasn't and never was.  But wishes are just that, wishes.  If I really wanted those things I'd get off my fat ass and do those things.  So why can't I do that?  I think it's because in my heart I've given up on myself.  The desire for things to make me happy really have gone away, leave only faint daydreams.  It's easier just to worry about trying to make others happy, which is probably the only reason I continue on.  Maybe someday I'll do enough good to make up for the bad I've done.  But that's a unbeatable battle.  I just hope I don't screw up bad enough to get my "eternal" fate sent where I deserve.  Plus I'm tired of having to say sorry, I've said it too much.  Not because I have nothing to apologize for, but it loses it's meaning when you say it as much as I have and becomes just a meaningless word and I hate wasting people's times with it now.

Okay, I'm done with all the drama self-pity for today.  I'll move on to other subjects.  I got a new digital camera this week, a nice 8.1megapixel  Vivitar Vivicam.  Can't wait to really give this a good tryout.  I'm also excited about the Superbowl, I don't have much invested in either team, but if things work out, I could have a nice little windfall come my way.  Anyways, enough for today.  I'm out.

Okay, got a little bored, took one of those "personality" tests.  I actually think it came out pretty close to how I'd like to think I am.  Figured I'd post it here.

I've now moved JmanX.net and my network of sites over to a new host.  JmanX.com will be moved over shortly.  More coming soon as I get everything moved over and setup.  Oh, and I've added an old image below that I liked (at the bottom of the updates list) that I made awhile ago.  Oh, and I had tried out Myspace temporarily, but I've decided to ignore it completely from now on.  So there is no "JmanX" account on there that I own, any you see is other people.  JmanX.net is the ONLY place I will be posting any personal information/pictures/etc.

Well, I've updated a couple more pages from the old personal site to this one.  I've added the Family Pics main page and the Other Photos page.  

Updating because I'm posting the pictures from the Yosemite Trip we just took.  Enjoy.

This is an easy site to update because really, I don't have to do anything other than type out a little something here and then upload.  I wish JmanX.com was as easy to update as this.  Oh well.  I changed a couple of the links over there on the right, and also some of the nav. links on the left.   Hopefully I'll be able to get this all fixed up sooner or than the .com version. 

December 15th, 2004

Well, I finally got around to doing it.  The personal section of my site is now on it's own and separated from JmanX.com and my other sites and stuff.  I've also finally updated some of the older pictures and descriptions (breakups and stuff).  I'll also be putting up some of the few recent photos I have, although I don't have many so don't expect much.  No one takes pictures any more other than Eugene, so check out his site for them.

I don't have, nor do I want really, a livejournal or xanga or any of those other blog accounts, so this site will also be where I post all that junk about what's going on with me.  So expect boring stuff you won't care about filling up most of this main page.